That Still Small Voice
I have an app I love to use at Christmas time, it’s called Santa’s bag. It allows me to enter in all of my gift recipients what the gifts they are going to receive, how much they cost and where I am in the process . . . purchased, ordered, wrapped, . etc. As a mom is makes it easy to keep track of how many gifts I have purchased for each kid and what the total cost is; I can make sure everything is even. But, if I am honest no matter how well organized I am, no matter how far in advance I purchase gifts, those last two weeks I am ALWAYS afraid it isn’t enough, it isn’t what they really want, that Christmas morning they will be disappointed.
I suppose in some ways it is really just a snapshot of the way many of us live our lives. Worried that despite our best efforts, who we are, what we have done, well . . . it just isn’t good enough and someone will be disappointed. We live in constant fear. Not a knee-knocking, white knuckled, scream your lungs out kinda fear. No, this fear is a slow creeping, ulcer creating, self doubt inducing kind of fear. It’s so insidious we often don’t recognize it as fear. We’ve become so accustomed to the sound of its voice we think it is our own.
But it is not our voice, and it is certainly not the voice of our God! The Holy Spirit does indeed whisper, and often his words can get missed in the messy jumble of our emotion driven thoughts, but his is the voice of truth. He reminds us that our worth is not found in what we do, but in who we are in Christ. When I become so focused on what I have or have not done, I neglect the fact that all I do, I can only do because of His grace. It is only because of God working through me. When I try to maintain things on my own it might look good for a while but ultimately the facade will crack and things will begin to tumble down around me. God does not call us to face the challenges or joys of life alone. He calls us to rely on him; to still the voices of chaos and listen for His still, small voice of truth.
On Christmas morning those gifts will be torn into and regardless of the contents my girls will be thrilled, because they know they are loved, they know they are valued and cherished. Likewise, whether we are in a period of rejoicing or struggle we can know God cherishes us, loves us and works in and through us to bring that love to a hurting world. When we listen to His voice we can rest assured we are enough because He is in us.
2 Corinthians 3: 4 - 6
We are confident of all this because of our great trust in God through Christ. It is not that we think we are qualified to do anything on our own. Our qualification comes from God. He has enabled us to be ministers of his new covenant. This is a covenant not of written laws, but of the Spirit. The old written covenant ends in death; but under the new covenant, the Spirit gives life.